| Hopes or not |
[May. 8th, 2012|02:29 am] |
What rights do have to cause me to feel this way?
But why am I reacting this way?
For who?
Why do I always feel insecure around you,always doubting myself?
Maybe you're one of those so called infatuation. Soon you will be forgotten.
Yes,you'll be.
Why do I make you out to be so perfect?
But you ain't.
Jealousy,being possessive.
I changed.
Wanna be better.
I know am wrong.
But yeah. You'll be forgotten.
Lemme say goodbye in advanced.
Goodbye. Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone. |
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| I know I'm evil, I asked for return |
[Apr. 25th, 2012|01:42 am] |
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Don't know what's up with me. Being sensitive over little things or worse being paranoid over it.
I don't deny that I'm a realllyyyyyy sensitive person. Note:really.
Like example when I said "hello" & they just entertain me by saying back a "hello",I donno why I can sense that they're entertaining me and I will deem the person as the world's most evil asshole. Okay,asshole seems a bit serious.
This is what I'm thinking.
I don't think positively. Or maybe the person is shy/ he(she) isn't used to people being friendly?
But,this doesn't occur to me at all. I just feel that the person is rude/he(she) hates me.
And I dislike he/she. This is it.
And yet there's this person whom I FOOLISHLY THOUGHT that we are really like on close terms-or I meant we do project together,talk together but this person didn't add me BUT YETTTTTTT THIS PERSON ADDED ANOTHER FRIEND INSTEAD OF ME. _|_
Okay,I sound really aggressive & unreasonable here.
But I feel that this person either dislike me or didn't treat me as friend. I'm sensitive & filled with negative thoughts. Yeah.
HOW COULD YOU DO THIS.
So sad.
People may feel that I making mountain out of a molehill. But to me,I wasn't.
This is what I'm feeling now......
How sad can this be...
I demand a why.
I won't stalk this person profile anymore.
I won't.
I won't care.
I won't try to be friendly anymore.
I WILL NOT.
You're totally invisible...........................to me.
Forgotten. I can. I must.
I will.
Such a trivial thing & I came up with all these. Wow.
Makes me feel so insecure and question myself am I really so unsociable?
WHY.
Sometimes being nice doesn't get a return. Or I'm asking for too much?
Goodnight. |
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| Those feelings... |
[Apr. 5th, 2012|04:21 am] |
Sometimes I'll feel like shit,my world came crashing down. I don't know who should I share my sorrows to(lol nope I'm not having depression lol) Be it be some unhappy things I met in life or academic stress? I just can't. But not once I have sucidal thoughts mainly because I'm humji hahaha. Pardon me if I'm being a lil exaggerating here. I mean yes I have those "how I wish I can disappear or vanish right away.." but not once I have those end my life thoughts. But just. Okay I don't really get what point I'm driving but just I'm just feeling moody sometimes and I just felt that who can I share to about my unhappiness. Don't suggest counsellor lol? HAHAHA. I mean how do I have the courage to say or.. Lemme rephrase a bit... Who can I trust? Err.. I hope this is my point. But just don't judge me. I.... Okay I guess noone read this site anyway so yeah I just bare my hearts out. X Urgggh, what am I typing seriously? Goodnight. Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone. |
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| Sadddddd |
[Feb. 29th, 2012|05:18 pm] |
On the mrt going towards raffles place ~ Went to yishun to collect my stuff and now im on the way back:) happy that i collected my stuff ad i cant wait to unwrap it!! Hahaha!!! But sad because of other matters :((((((((( and y the train so crowded:(((((((( Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone. |
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| Irrational |
[Feb. 25th, 2012|02:15 am] |
Don't know what to feel.
Slightly one thought can affect my mood.
I just hope I can enjoy my holidays. I really need it.
I just hate myself on dwelling on things that happened days ago or worse,few weeks or months ago.
Why should I and why would I?
That's why I will be feeling happy this moment and unhappy the next moment.
Ironic but I don't know how to control.
And I felt that I have been throwing sarcasm around quite often.
Felt bad about it but that's towards people who just don't get my meaning even after a century of explanation.
That's a exaggerated fact.
Yep,this should be all what I'm feeling nowadays.
Family outing tomorrow! Can't wait!
Gonna lunch @ Swensens~
Goodnight all :) |
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| On my mind |
[Feb. 23rd, 2012|04:20 am] |
Craving for sushi.
Wanna get:Baggu,spectacle,watch,shoes. Still haven't managed to get cos I'm lazy. |
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| Not happy |
[Feb. 8th, 2012|02:24 am] |
I'm trying to be nice,I mean like really nice but can you stop taking it for granted? I gave you some and instead of feeling grateful,you want even MORE?! Thats so what the fuck. Do you know what is 得寸进尺? I mean like it's not my business,yet I'm obliged to do it willingly uh? Once or twice is okay but I can sense that it's a never-ending task. My precious time leh and what's more it's my exam period now!! And it seems that I have to follow your instructions when you are asking me for help? Yes? Whutdafuq. Sometimes,it kills when you are trying to be a really nice person. You taught me the ugly truth anyway. I hope this is the very LAST TIME please. Prease hor?! ㅗㅗㅗ Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone. |
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| Guilty thoughts |
[Jan. 24th, 2012|01:49 am] |
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Sometimes I really wonder if God already planned some things for us or what... Do we already have all these thoughts,these actions,these consequences or we're just doing what all that are already planned for us? I'm just feeling that I ought to have that or deserve that but I can't have it. Why. I don't think I deserve all these.. I should...deserve much better. |
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| A good sleep |
[Jan. 7th, 2012|03:49 am] |
Hey gaiz! Wassup! Look at the ungodly time now. Im tired like st 12 plus but no idea why am not turning in early. Puzzlinggggg. Okay, im turning in now i promissse. Hope i have a good night rest. No waking up at intervals lol. Nightts Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone. |
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